Dream girl!?? Be careful what you wish for...

I hope the universe forgives me for finding you again & being forced to leave you behind, in yet another timeline.

This time hurts more than any i remember, because I saw the signs & promised myself, the creator & you, that in this life i'd get it right.

I was wrong & it's painful. But there isn't anything I could've done differently no matter how much I attempt to blame myself. The cards fell exactly how they were supposed to this time around. I guess.

Hard to accept, but I've accepted this.

Little did I know there's no battle that could've ever have prepared me for the war we call "love".

"Woman of my dreams", I saw me with you, in love & harmony, when I closed my eyes at night.

Many mornings I rose in anticipation, "manifesting", bringing you into my reality. & disappointment in having to leave you behind when I awake.

& wait, just to be able to feel your energy again the next time I doze off. So of course, once your presence in my life was manifested, it was naively perceived as nothing other than a blessing, a gift, by me.

How could it be anything other than that?! Right.

Well that's how these things work. I'm a firm believer in duality. Everything bad has a good and vice versa.

Because of that, I apologize. I did you a disservice by holding unfair expectations over you.

Who am I to have expected you to match up to the standards & attributes of "you" in my dreams? No one's perfect & I did you an injustice expecting flawlessness.

You hurt me more than any woman before you. I didn't think I could , but I've recovered & now I'm stronger, mentally, spiritually & emotionally. If it weren't for the help of you, I would've never been pushed to those dark realizations in myself. So thank you.

& I hope you held on to & still apply the positive substance I provided in your life & let go of & move past the drama between us. & dont ignore the lessons learnt nmin the storm.

Now, I can forgive you for playing with my soul. & forgive myself for falling victim, allowing it. Then, mishandling you as a result.

Hope you can do the same & move forward & find your happiness & peace.

Peace, Love & GodChalance

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