Guess I'll see you next lifetime

I hope the universe forgives me for finding you &

being forced to leave you behind, in yet another life.

This time hurts more than ever, because I saw the

signs & promised myself, the creator & you, that in

this life i'd get it right.

I was wrong & it's painful. But there isn't anything I

could've done differently no matter how much I

attempt to blame myself. The cards fell exactly how

they were supposed to this time around. I guess.

Hard to accept, but I've accepted this.

Little did I know there's no battle that could've ever

prepared me for the war we call love.

"Woman of my dreams", I saw me with you, in

love & harmony, when I closed my eyes at night.

Many mornings I rose in anticipation, "manifesting"

you, bringing you into my reality.

& disappointment in having to leave you behind when I awake.

& wait, just to be able to feel your energy again the next time I doze off.

So of course, once your presence in my life was

manifested, it was naively perceived as nothing

other than a blessing, a gift, by me.

How could it be anything other than that?! Right.

Well that's how these things work. I'm a firm believer

in duality. Everything bad has a good and vice versa.

Because of that, I apologize. I did you a disservice

by holding unfair labels over you.

Who am I to have expected you to match up to the

standards & attributes of "you" of my dreams?

No one's perfect & I did you an injustice

expecting flawlessness.

You hurt me more than any woman before you. I

didn't think I could , but I've recovered & now I'm

stronger, mentally, spiritually & emotionally. If it

weren't for you I would've never been pushed to

those realizations in myself. So thank you.

& I hope you held on to & still apply the positive

substance I provided in your life & let go of & move

past the drama between us.

Now, I can forgive you for playing with my soul. & forgive

myself for falling victim, allowing it. Then,

mishandling you as a result.

Hope you can do the same & move forward & find

your happiness & peace.

Peace, Love & GodChalance